living in strange skin (and other little nothings)

do you have those days?  it always starts when i'm getting dressed and i stand in front of my clothes for what feels like 10 hours.  but is really only parts of minutes.  and i look at every shirt, every sweater, and know that no matter the combination, it will fit oddly and not match.

even if it matches.  follow?

so i settled on a t and hoodie because if there was ever a duo that could do no wrong, it would be the t and hoodie.  my trusty friends.  but it was all for naught.  i think it's a feeling that is more internal than ex.  but the external is so much easier to blame.  i make it about how the fabrics feel, one against the other.  i sigh a lot.

today wasn't so bad.  i went with a heather gray t.  a brownish hoodie.  jeans.  gray flats.  i could even accept the brownish hoodie and gray flats.  but.  hm.  it wasn't right.  and it really affects every part of the day.  although, i admit, it's worse when the problem seems to be the undergarments.  way worse.  wearing the wrong bra makes even the best day torturous.

(side note: just realized that for the past 6 months or so, i've been saying tortuous when i've meant torturous.  mostly because i thought the former sounded more european.  and because i thought they were the same word.  awesome.)

i don't even know what cures this.  i guess a shower.  pajamas.  but those are cure-alls.  i can't be certain they specifically cure this weirdness.  i'd like to know what a shower and/or pajamas CAN'T cure.  it seems impossible.

and unlikely.

in related news, is anyone else out there addicted to pajama/comfy pants?  i find it goes against everything in my internal solar system to go to any store and not buy comfy pants.  like my planets get crazy misaligned.  and their moons fall out of the sky.

other things i'm addicted to: 

-cheese
-bowls (ie anthropologie's latte bowls or c&b's mini parker bowls)

-"eyes" by rogue wave
-husb
-etsy
-thrifty rainbow sherbet
-foot rubs

p.s.  i was really really (really!) hoping to utilize the new (to me) strikethrough feature.  tomorrow maybe?  it's a big day...  stay tuned  :)

one hundred

can it be?

can it really be?!

99 posts ago i was shyly saying hello, finding my way in this crazy blogging world.

and now, here i am.

thinking i'm awesome :)

but really, you're the awesome one. you, reading this for the hundredth time or the first. you, leaving comments and making my day. you, allowing me to just talk, write, be.

so thank you. any and all readers. thank you for sticking with me. i promise the next hundred will be even more fun, entertaining, insightful. i promise more pictures. more poetry. more peyton (in the fall, of course).

i won't let down a single one of you.

xoxo,
emily b.

owies

i am officially done getting hurt. you heard me! no more hydrogen peroxide. no more polysporin. no more bandaids! you hear me injury-gods? i have had band-aids of one sort or another on me for over a week...and i've had it!

now, if you don't mind, i'm going to glue my toenail together and hope that the cut on my finger (from the litter box, of all disgusting and germ-ridden places) doesn't cause my finger to fall off.

harumph!!

(but...do you want to know something cooooooool? when i hydro-peroxided my finger, the bubbles made the skin on my cut move up and down. i know! it was like watching discovery channel but way awesomer! ok, injury-gods, i'll give you that one. but please, please, please...give it a rest for awhile...)

faceblog :)

emily b is against dieting and for ice cream sandwiches
is all headache and no sunlight (for 4 days! good god...)
wishes she could paint bathrooms...effortlessly
is daydreaming about home improvement
has been lazy about blogging lately (but mostly out of sheer exhaustion)
loves nothing more than comments from her sweet sis-in-law-to-be :)
has a CUTE new haircut...pics to follow!
is losing her maui tan :(
is sorry for staying away so long..time has been flying by..
says three-day weekends are freakin awesome!!
promises multiple blogs in the next few days (pinky promise!)

xoxoxo

and you thought i was never coming back

oh my pets, don't fret! i am here, was here all along, in fact. i just haven't quite wrapped my head around blogging about our trip to maui. yet. i will. i promise! there is just so much to say! when i think of what to write, in what order, in what words...i hear buzzing sounds in my head. i know. crazy. SO. this is just a friendly hello. to say that i/we are back in the real world of things. working. loving. buying pink shoes...

warning! tangent ahead:

i love steve madden heavenly skimmer flats. (you can find them at dsw) i own them in red, black and gray. ever since i bought the red ones (a year ago?) i have wished (oh how i have wished) for them in pink. they are the PERFECT shoe to have in pink. like for sure. SO. i gave up. because said shoe warehouse has carried this shoe for a while with no color options in sight. BUT. i happened upon dsw's site today and...be still my overjoyed heart...there they were. in pink. i could barely breathe. it was an answer to a prayer. and it felt a little awkward. like i had a lot of power or something. (all of a sudden the shoe comes in pink? after i have fretted about it for a year?! it seems most likely i have something to do with this.) so, they will be arriving any day now. well, 3-5 days i suppose. but i can wait. seems patience got me the pink shoes to begin with.

an.y.who.

i am home. i am tan. and i will be back shortly with more words and hopefully a few pics for y'all.

while my benny is away

i went to work
i worked my buns off
i left work
came home
changed into comfy clothes
and embarked on my journey of massage therapy
and acupressure
i got a 3 hour massage tonight
it was heavenly
oh, and it hurt like the dickens
but now
oh now
i feel like i could cartwheel across the atlantic

so i came home
made a yummy dinner
and crawled into bed with my boys
downloaded some new tunes onto my ipod
facebooked (but just a little)
and watched the lakers beat the jazz

when ben is away i turn most of the lights on in the house
and i also have the tv on every second that i'm awake
this is so my paranoid ears don't hear anything
and, if they do,
i can look around and easily see that it was all in my head
paranoia is the pits

tomorrow i will
hopefully
finish 95% of my remaining work
have dinner with my ma
come home
do laundry
wash the last of the dishes
and jump up and down when my benny gets home
and then

who cares?
oh, of course life goes on
but i'm saving up all of my hugs for my husb
and they will be dispensed with much vigor

ok ok, and then sleep
then wednesday
then MAUI!!

i am a bit worried about leaving the boys for so long...is that normal? i think i'm sure they'll be fine. but...i'll miss my cuddly monkeys. and their funny faces. and their sweet talking.

holy crap. i just heard the SCARIEST noise outside. i'm going to sleep and turning up the tv (most possibly in the opposite order) before i freak out anymore.

oh good, dhani is on. that makes for fun television.

goodnight, my lovelies.

a work in progress

what i was hoping for today was to copy and paste.
in my last semester as a grad student i wrote prose poems.
short. short. prose poems.
they were my attempt at imitating gary young.
who(m?) i greatly admire.
(read: find his book somewhere, anywhere! and read it a few times over.)
alas,
i can't find the poems anywhere.
so i am forgoing my usual panicky routine
and will sort through my big ol' box of writings
and will hopefully post something poetic later this evening.
hopefully.
(read: if i don't find those poems in said box, said panicky routine will ensue.)

things that are making me happy today:

• the new forest fire prevention ads that have a picture of smokey the bear and say, "get your smokey on" (SO funny!!)
  
• the colts won!!! yay yay yay!!!
• i woke up this morning at 4 am to find that i had moved my pillow to on top of my stomach and was using my sham pillow to sleep on. how could i be so active and not even know it??
• during said awakeness (which lasted until just before 5 am...yikes) benny turned onto my side of the bed and snuggled up. i fell asleep almost immediately after that.
• the only reason i knew my pillow was on top of me was because i could hear sammy chewing on the tag. and had to laugh.
  
• i get to have the yummiest spaghetti lunch because my husband is an amazing cook :)
• i 'refused' a package that came in the mail so now i should get my rewards points back. phew.
• our house is clean. and beautiful. and i can't wait to be home later, cuddling up with my boy and our boys. watching jon & kate plus 8. and little people, big world. and chuck. this is the life.
  

you don't see a lot of

sky writing these days. i'm thinking there should be a website devoted purely to sky-writing. and here is why: when have you ever read something in the sky that didn't make you smile, even just a little bit? you'd never see i hate you in sky-writing. and, if you did, it would at least be a little funny. i dunno. let me know if you've seen anything great written upon the heavens lately :)

there is a first for everything

and with that, i present my first post. of all time. of ever. yay!! :)