here's what about me

i've been stressed for the past week.  stressed to the max, i might say.  and today, a sigh of relief.  it was most likely needless that i was as stressed as i was.  but i am a worrier when it comes to worries.  and there is still plenty to have on my mind.  so now i've made a little stressless space.  in which to breathe.

work is at its apex this month.  this is the hardest month out of the entire year for me.  most other months, i do monthly bookkeeping.  general cleaning & filing.  some months i do those things as well as quarterly bookkeeping.  but this month.  this month i do all of the above, end-of-year bookkeeping, 1099 documentation, server implementation, new software implementation, and appt scheduling for this upcoming tax season.  some days i am vain enough to think i do everything.  which i don't.  but you can bet your bottom dollar that i'm doing about, oh, 99% more than the world's worst employee.  aka my sister.  who has filled her days looking on craigslist for godknowswhat and chatting with her (loser) friends.  (who has a job at which they're chatting alllllll day?)  my sister and her three friends.  for serious.  it's not that i really care.  because it doesn't affect my job.  it actually makes me look like a saint.  but it's hard when your coworker sucks.  and even harder when that same coworker is your sister.  for whom you have little to no respect.  and who you might trade for someone else.  isn't that terribly sad?

in other news, i have found the premium sharp cheddar cheese slice.  it comes from target.  and is market pantry brand.  soooo good.  you know, if you like that sort of thing.  i have compared it to both tillamook and trader joe's sliced cheddar cheeses and there is no comparison.  i never thought i'd be buying cheese at target.  i thought target was exclusively for clothing and paper goods.  and picture frames.  and toiletries.  but now also cheese.

in other other news, i am in love with sunsets.  i am so glad the days are getting longer because when i am leaving work i can take shots like this.  instead of walking out to my car in the dark. 

and every day it's different.  some days better than others.  but it's something to count on, isn't it?  some days there are only two certainties.  that the sun will rise and the sun will set.  everything in between is luck.  and chaos.  incredible tragedy.  insurmountable happiness.  sandwiched between all of this beauty.  all of this.