emily b: the sun and the moon

(today, 4pm, eastward)

lately i've been having the same dream. or rather, the same part of a dream. or rather, a thematic element in which a recurring moment, well, recurs. only it fits in with the different dream. it is the same and different.

ya dig?

so, the moment is this. i'm going somewhere. i'm focused. and i look up. and the sun and the moon are both in the sky. like right next to each other. and they're both huuuuuge. huge. and i grab for my camera. or someone's attention. and no one is listening. or my camera won't work. in this last one, my mister and i were off to the theatre. we had front row seats to see phantom of the opera. in some swanky opera house. but i wanted a picture of the sky so badly. and b was urging me to go to our seats. he had me by the hand. and we went inside.

so...yeah. i'm sure it means something about something but i'm not sure i really want to know. i'm pretending it signifies all of my stars aligning. all planets and moons too. i'm all for alignment. (which just made me laugh because my back went out today. maybe i should be all for spinal alignment...?)

an.e.whoooo...

this year is coming to an end so quickly. do you guys feel like that too? i can barely wrap my fingers and hands around each day before it's gone gone gone. and i don't know about 2010 yet. it has the potential to be a big year. i'll be the big 3-0 about 3/4 of the way through it. and i don't know how i feel about that yet. not because i'm one of those "i'm so old!" people. because i'm not. but it's a big number. and as of yet it feels bigger than i can be. so we'll see how that goes. luckily, we still have quite a while until then.

i will leave you with my favorite picture from our earlier december trip up north to san fran. ben says it is his favorite picture of me ever. in all of time. and i'll take that compliment thankyouverymuch :) i happen to like it too. me+chunky knits=comfy to the max. so here, my sweet pepitas. with love.