this very sunday-ish of mondays

.blah.

at one point i awoke to sammy heaving. you know, that hairball noise. it was dark. it was 5:00. i was a bit relieved that it wasn't tiggy galloping over me even when he has food, water and shelter. (oy!) so he heaved and heaved. he isn't much of a hairballer so i wasn't too concerned. at one point i got up to swipe his nose with vaseline (it clears up hairballs) but he slunk away. and stopped heaving. then i realized it was monday morning. and not sunday. and a feeling of dread washed over me as i found sleep again.

then i had a dream that b and i were on vacation. we were fighting about everything. at one point he said he was done. and broke up with me. i was devastated.

sigh.

then, in the still dark, b woke me up to say goodbye. i mean, not forever. but for work. although, after my dream i was a little concerned. and lonely. and terribly sad. it was only 6:30. (these eyes don't even know what 6:30 looks like!) it took me about .03 milliseconds to fall back to sleep.

then, in the gray morning my alarm went off. i got up, put on my jeans, read my fav blogs, then curled up back in bed with the tiggster and went right back to sleep. (even as the neighbor's construction project was going on! even in my jeans!) i could fit the description of a "sleepy-head" quite easily today.

perhaps i should mention that we took off our terrible mattress protector (the urethane kind) last night and now you can actually sink in to the delicious goodness that is our mattress. at the moment, i am deciding that the warranty being voided cannot be as important as the amazing comfort of our unprotected bed.

and since leaving that foamy, mattressy haven, i have been daydreaming only of returning. oh, cushiony goodness.

i just haven't felt like myself these past few days. a disastrous mix of distracted, restless, unmotivated, and whiny. i feel like all of the love in the world couldn't help. and yet, i still want it. (um, i'm pretty sure i mentioned whiny...) it wouldn't be too much of a stretch to spend all of tonight in pajamas whilst type type typing on my laptop...but i might even be too much of all of the aforementioned to do even that.

if nothing else, homemade chocolate chip cookies.

and my word is my vow.