*and i would only dare to know the edges of the universe in my dreams*

i envy people who can pack up and take off. (i envy you, s) i can barely pack up to go to work without wishing i were at home. not to be a homebody. not to trade my mad bookkeeping skills for dishes and cleaning the hardwood floor cinderella style.

i just like the way my house smells. i like the way my cats follow me all around, rubbing their soft heads on my shins. i like the light that comes in differently in each window. i like that every room seems to lead to the next. home = peace and light and happiness.

*sigh*

on the flip side, i love seeing the world. i love travelling once we're out of the house. once we've landed somewhere. once my eyes are seeing everything for the first time (or the fifth). i like knowing i'm a visitor. that i'm new. out of place.

this week sees us jetting off to indianapolis and chicago. i am looking forward to bits and pieces of this trip but am most glad about it signifying the end of a hectic couple of months. ben and i keep saying, "october 11th. and then we can breathe." i'm looking forward for some time for weekend trips here and there without looming responsibilities.

before i showered tonight, tiggy crept through the door before i could close it (otherwise the light shines right across the pillows of our bed...not great for an almost asleep husband). he ran around in there until i enticed him out and patted on his favorite new bed (the top of the hamper) and then i quickly shut the door and showered. when i opened the door and stepped out, the floor was warm underneath one of my feet...which meant my sweetest of soft boys had laid there just waiting for me. tiggy is the worst (read: best) at knowing when we're going away. he lays on the charm really thick-like. like that sleeping by the door move...gets me every time.

i'm sure it's stupid but i really miss my guys when we're gone. i know, i know. they're cats. i get it. but i find comfort in their soft bodies taking up corners of the bed. their nuzzly faces. the way their purring always puts me to sleep. i always feel a little bit lonely when we are without them...

so, yes, indianapolis and chicago. my fingers are crossed for a tour of lucas oil stadium. also, we'll get to spend some time with zach & angie :) for me, i think this might be the highlight of this trip. and on sunday, we return home. to the welcome autumn air. a blend of the warm sun and cool breeze. our home will await us. our boys.

is it bad, on a monday, to be looking forward to sunday?

october 11th. inhale. exhale.