in light and in shadows of the soul

isn't it amazing how miserable people have the uncanny ability to suck every atom of joy out of your own life?

it is no secret that i have a miserable sister. (well, unless it is your first time here, and in that case, welcome!--fyi, my sister is a miserable jerk.) it may also not be a secret that i have a mom who is constantly struggling and therefore depressed. and depression is miserable.

and, for today it seems, i have a miserable boss. he is overwhelmed. i get it. but still, miserable.

and MAN. i am struggling to keep the sunshine of my soul burning bright. it feels impossible to dodge all of the thunderstormy clouds that the aforementioned are trying to infuse into my life.

dammit people, i want to smile!!

i have a song in my heart and a swing in my step!!

and if everyone doesn't buck up and deal with their crap, i am running home (well, driving...but running) and climbing into bed with my boys to drown myself in the happiness that is my life. and i will stay there as long as it takes (read: tuesday morning, when i have to get up for work). and i will not waver.

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