emily b and the...

perhaps my name should be alexander. (except that might be weird seeing as i'm a girl and all...)

oh, the humanity! today is terrible.

it started when, at 2:30am the house phone rang. it was a name and number i didn't know so i didn't answer it. but my heart was pounding. hard. and i think i sweated a little. i hate wrong-number-phone-calls in the middle of the night. they creep me out.

(other things that creep me out: koi fish, ivy, grasshoppers. bleck)

then, at 4:30am, sammy found a plastic bag he just had to lick and bite on. enough so that it woke me up, causing me to find that silly orange boy and his newfound toy to try to put it somewhere (anywhere!) that he couldn't get to.

then, at 7, my alarm went off.

the horror!!

then, and now (i suppose), i was/am stuck in this teeny tiny office with all members of my immediate family (read: mom and sister). both of whom are driving me to consider illegal drug use. fear not, i am a drug-hater. but maybe a stiff drink. i'm desperate...

also, ben is away. and not that i can't manage. i can. and not that i can't be alone. i can. (i hate it...but i can.) but when everything else is so crappy, he sure does level out the playing field that is my life. and when previously mentioned phone call happened, he would have been comforting. and i would have felt safe. instead, i spent 1/2 an hour convincing myself that it wasn't a stalker or someone calling from outside our house.

(have i mentioned before that i think i have a paranoia problem?)

my dream day would consist of the following:

-a break from my family (read: mom & sis)
-los al target (the premiere target in all of the world)
-maybe buying something crazy on etsy
-popcorn for dinner and chocolate pudding for dessert
-snuggling with my boys
-it actually being thursday so i wouldn't have to spend another night alone...

(if i get another random call in the middle of the night tonight, i swear i'm gonna lose it, you guys.)