*when there is all ocean and no shore*

if i saw you
if i saw you in sleep
if i saw you in sleep and wept it is only because my words had run out long ago

in the language of saline i want to tell you specifics
the whens and wheres
the whys
i open my mouth, my lips form the sounds but they are all silent

if i dreamt you
if i dreamt you upon waking
if i dreamt you upon waking and never found you again of what use would any of this be

in the enveloping darkness, in specks of light i find i can't help but dance and spin as if what pulls me and pushes me is slowly coming to the surface
as if it is my tides that have changed, are changing, will change