palm-to-the-springs
i have had a two-day headache.
i suppose the best time to have a two-day headache is when one is on vacation and has nothing to do but sleep in a dark room.
i cannot wait to get home to our enormous and comfortable bed. we have been sleeping in the most uncomfortable full bed for the past 5 nights. good god.
said bed is definitely the reason for said headache.
i have written two poems this week, so far.
i have yet to write my poem for verdad. that is due like now.
i am actually looking forward to being back at work.
i read 'the four agreements' and already feel like my life is changing. awesome.
i actually got angry today at a stranger who commented on another blog saying, "anyone who says they LOVE LOVE LOVE their spouse is LYING." super angry.
(i LOVE LOVE LOVE my husband. we fight. we disagree. but that is because we are two different people. spending most of our lives (thus far) apart, not even knowing the other person existed. we come from two totally different families. and have had completely different life experiences. but i LOVE LOVE LOVE him. and cannot see that changing anytime soon. grrr. stupid stupidness of all stupidity.)
inhale. exhale. inhale. exhale.
i have already failed today at one of the agreements. 'don't take anything personally.' acknowledge. start over.
back me up, ladies. let me know how you feel about your man. can't we be crazy in love whilst being honest? or is it more 'normal' to always be on the brink of a divorce/break-up? i almost feel like we need to take this discussion to oprah. and maybe dr. oz.
(i will be laughing about the idea of me sitting with oprah and dr. oz all day) :)
i suppose the best time to have a two-day headache is when one is on vacation and has nothing to do but sleep in a dark room.
i cannot wait to get home to our enormous and comfortable bed. we have been sleeping in the most uncomfortable full bed for the past 5 nights. good god.
said bed is definitely the reason for said headache.
i have written two poems this week, so far.
i have yet to write my poem for verdad. that is due like now.
i am actually looking forward to being back at work.
i read 'the four agreements' and already feel like my life is changing. awesome.
i actually got angry today at a stranger who commented on another blog saying, "anyone who says they LOVE LOVE LOVE their spouse is LYING." super angry.
(i LOVE LOVE LOVE my husband. we fight. we disagree. but that is because we are two different people. spending most of our lives (thus far) apart, not even knowing the other person existed. we come from two totally different families. and have had completely different life experiences. but i LOVE LOVE LOVE him. and cannot see that changing anytime soon. grrr. stupid stupidness of all stupidity.)
inhale. exhale. inhale. exhale.
i have already failed today at one of the agreements. 'don't take anything personally.' acknowledge. start over.
back me up, ladies. let me know how you feel about your man. can't we be crazy in love whilst being honest? or is it more 'normal' to always be on the brink of a divorce/break-up? i almost feel like we need to take this discussion to oprah. and maybe dr. oz.
(i will be laughing about the idea of me sitting with oprah and dr. oz all day) :)
posted by emily b. at
10:38 AM
2 Comments:
That person was definitely just really jealous that you LOVE LOVE LOVE your husband. Oh, and the paragraph written all in black could basically be transferred to mine and Zach's relationship (Zach and my? Zach and I? I don't remember the grammer rule....) Anyway, that's exactly how I feel!
Emily--I'm the person who wrote that on Natalie's blog. May I explain myself? I was mostly joking for Natalie's benefit. She and I both tend to exaggerate for effect. And she thanked me over email, saying she'd occasionally felt the same way. And then told me to read this post because I apparently made you mad.
I apologize for hurting your feelings or making you mad. I don't believe people who love their husbands and speak positively about them are lying. I wish I was a more positive person myself--I've been struggling with postpartum depression for 8 months, I'm isolated from family and all my old friends due to a recent move, and my husband just lost his job. He's been tense and moody lately, and it's made my day-to-day life that much harder to navigate. Plus, my sister-in-law (who I mentioned in my post) and I are both married to cynical, argumentative men (brothers, of course) whom we love and yet struggle to understand at times. And we both have babies under 1. So life at home can be a bit hard. That's all I meant by my comment. You are very lucky not to feel as many ups and downs in your own relationship with your husband. I envy you for that! I'm working to become a more even-keeled person myself. I say what I say only because underneath our sunny exteriors, there are a lot of us who sometimes feel lonely and frustrated and misunderstood in our marriages, and we often wonder if we're the only ones who feel that way. I love my husband tremendously and would never, ever leave him. But that doesn't mean life isn't occasionally very, very hard!
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